It's lonely here.  I don't quite know what to explain it as.  I think it's because none of the co-workers I'm around do I have any desire to hang out with.  The ones I'd like to get to know  don't work near me and I can't get to know them without S. around.  My shy-ness is overwhelmed by her huge need to be payed attention to.  I want friends.  It's so lonely here.  This is kinda why F getting a new job is so horrid.  It separates me more from the friends I do have.